Then my power when out.
Then my internet went out once the power came back on.
I looked outside to see if the sun had turned red or a black hole was forming but that didn’t seem to be the case.
Oh, and right now, I’m blogging from my phone.
It also means that once again, I am delaying the “kids stuff” post. But I do have a few observations in the midst of my first world crisis. Often times we, yes even me, hold on to things “just in case.” It’s why I kept a spare coffee pot for two years. But there comes a tipping point in our lives where we have to decide if we are to continue to rely on the accumulation of stuff and money as wards against just in case, to keep life constantly convenient, or are we going to stop grasping so tightly to everything but the one thing that will keep us from drowning? Let it go. We cannot be prepared for every blip, bump and eventuality. We sure can’t guard against real catastrophe with stuff and money. When chaos strikes, and it will, it won’t be our stuff that saves us. It is entirely possible we won’t be saved at all but will have to walk right through the fire from beginning to end. When that happens, it will be what we’ve gained in the letting go that carries us: the relationships, the family, the friends that have taken root and flourished in the open spaces of our lives. We weren’t meant to get through life on our own, but we keep building these imaginary castles of self sufficiency on foundations of a greedy American dream at the expense of the people who are simply waiting for us to need…something.
I’m not at all saying that today was a catastrophe. It has been particularly frustrating. Take it from me, home school becomes exponentially challenging when there is no power on a heavy technology day. Frustration, catastrophe, these things happen no matter how many coffee pots we store in the closets. But had I only needed to reach for a spare, I would have missed out on the pleasure of allowing someone to touch my life in the simplest of ways. I’m glad I threw my old junk away after all.
***Edited to add: after I typed this with my thumbs on my phone, I couldn’t get it to post no matter what I did. It took the Hunky man coming home and unsnarling all the technology to finally be able to say anything at all.